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In Her Place
Pamm was nineteen, still living under her mother’s roof, and Trevor was twenty. They had been together long enough that the secrecy had started to feel normal. Susanna made no secret of her disapproval. She called Trevor a distraction, a bad influence, a temporary phase that needed ending. She scheduled “family talks,” restricted Pamm’s evenings, and once even showed up at Trevor’s part-time job to glare at him through the glass. So they learned to meet in parking lots, text in code, and keep their voices low when they were near the house. That afternoon Pamm was alone in the family room, half-watching something on the muted television, when the door opened and Susanna walked in. Her mother stopped in the middle of the carpet and struck a deliberate pose: body angled slightly left, left hand planted on her hip, right hand relaxed in front of her, chin lifted, weight on the back leg, front knee soft. She held it as if waiting for a camera. Pamm blinked. “Mom, what do you want?” The figure in her mother’s clothes smiled in a way Susanna never did. “Don’t you recognize me? I’m Trevor. I’m in here. Now your mom can’t do anything.” Pamm’s first reaction was irritation. “Very funny. You practiced that in the mirror?” Trevor-inside Susanna’s body-stepped closer. He spoke in Susanna’s voice, but the cadence, the little half-laugh, the way he tilted his head when he was about to prove a point, were all his. He told her things only the two of them knew: the private joke about the broken vending machine, the exact words of the last text he’d sent before she left his place the night before, the scar on his left knee from the skateboard accident when he was fifteen. He moved the way Trevor moved when he was trying not to pace-restless energy forced into someone else’s posture. The realization landed slowly, then all at once. Pamm’s face went pale. “How?” “I don’t know. One minute I was walking past the house, next minute I was standing in the kitchen in her clothes and she was gone. Or… not gone. Somewhere else.” He flexed Susanna’s fingers, looking at them like they belonged to a stranger. “She’s not here. I am. And she can’t stop us now.” They spent the next hour testing the edges of it. Trevor learned how Susanna’s height changed the way the room felt, how her longer hair kept falling across his face, how her voice cracked when he tried to raise it the way he normally did. Pamm kept touching his-her-arm as if the contact would confirm it was real. Fear and relief kept trading places. For the first time in months there was no one in the house who could ground them, lecture them, or slam a door in Trevor’s face. |